Still PND or just depression or just being a bitch????
Life is weird at the moment. I ran out of my Citalopram tablets about two weeks ago, went without them for a few days, then got a new prescription but started taking half a dose every day.
I am definitely feeling the effects of the lower dose. It doesn’t feel like TheDepression has come back though, it feels like it’s TheBitch that has come back.
Every once in a while (read: several times a day) I’m just so overwhelmingly grumpy that I snap at people (which is such an hideous thing to do)… and I get annoyed by my kids… and all I want to do is just a) sleep or b) exercise.
I can’t figure out whether this means that I should just go back to the 20mg of Citalopram… so that I’m a nice person again and don’t nag my husband, mother and children… OR whether I should try to tackle this by other methods? Vitamin D? Meditation? Is it really the depression that’s making me a non-nice person or maybe I AM a non-nice person to begin with and the medication is just masking it??? :|
It’s just really unsettling to feel that I’m calm and collected and happy when I’m on a proper dose of antidepressants but if I’m not, I’m grumpy and mean.
I so want to be a nice person without any medication…